Uhh jk that was June 25th… Today is national Kiss-and-make-up day.

Happy national Catfish day!
Devin… I met you here on tumblr and eventhough I know you cant read this im writing it anyways… We’ve had our ups and downs… A lot of them but I still care about you… We ended things on bad terms and I hate that, I dont what the future has in store for me or you but I hope that we find eachother again as lovers or as friends anythings better than as nothing.

So…. A year ago yesterday I broke my leg. It was a pretty horrible expirenece for me not only because of the physical pain of breaking it but also the emotional pain of being left by all my so called “friends” expect for one (For the 100th time thanks Lawerence). It sucked! But it helped me a lot, oddly enough… Somehow it helped me gain more confidence. While i was being wheeled back to center (sitting on a longboard, thank god someone left it for me before they left too) what went through mind was “how could they do that”, instead of what “did I do to make them not want to stay?” And it feels great, in a shitty way. Ive never really felt comfortable in my own skin, ive felt insecure and outcasted a lot growning up, partly because i was and because i let myself be… And well I either felt likw i was being a reculse or a pushover trying to either stay away from people or to get people to like me… But I dont want to be like that anymore. Hating yourself is no way to live life and thankfully i dont anymore. I never did get an appology from all the people who left me but… That doesny matter anymore, ive grown so much from it… Everything happens for a reason and sometimes you have to learn it the hard way.

  • me at home: i've been wearing the same jeans and band shirt for the last three weeks but it still smells alright so i'll keep wearing it
  • me going away: I NEED ONE SHIRT FOR EACH DAY AND EXTRA IN CASE IT GETS DIRTY AND THE SAME AMOUNT OF JEANS AND SOCKS ACTUALLY NO I'LL NEED EXTRA SOCKS IN CASE IT FLOODS AND DOUBLE THE UNDERWEAR IN CASE OF DISASTER AND ONE NICE OUTFIT IN CASE I GET INVITED TO TEA WITH THE QUEEN